all round misfit

im the kind of guy who raves out to piano solo's,

who listens to screamo so i can calm down,

the dopey kid in an extension maths class,

the young one in the group of friends by about 3 years,

the ugly guy who falls for the prettiest girls,

the one who actually speaks his mind,

the one who actually does his best to keep the convo alive,

the guy whos open about all topics except himself,

the great liar who hates lies,

the rugby player who carves up computer games and likes to read,

the guy who thinks with his brain and heart rather than his testosterone fueled manparts,

the guy who wants a relationship thats real,

the guy who always has a comeback, an talks too much, but is speechless with her,

i could keep typing this out til my fingers bled, you get the point,

im not like most people

i need out,

im not going to whinge and whine like a little bitch, cus whoever you are reading this, you have problems too, you dont want to hear about some douche who cant handle his love life and hates the town he lives in

so basically life has been pretty normal lately, almost finished what i started last november, which for those of you, or basically all of you who dont understand what im talking about, it pretty much goes like i was a bit of a manslut last year, and after stepping back an having a look at myself, i really didnt like what i saw, so i decided no sexual activities for a year, just to prove to myself and everyone else that i could. in 9 days its done, and i dont know what im going to do, i've learnt so much about myself in this year, who i am and who i want to be, and i know for sure i dont want a teenage relationship with some immature skank who doesnt take it seriously, i want something more, so the search for a girl that gives a damn is back on..

so thats enough of my emotional life atm

as for sports, i've tried taking basketball seriously this year, attending all trainings and playing every game i could, and while i still have a downright horrible percentage of shots going in the hoop, i can now defend better than anyone else on my team and am fitter also. so theres a plus i guess.

as for school, i still hate it, i finally made an effort to get out there and make some friends this year, the problem being every single one of them is in y12 and will have left this town in 6 weeks cus theres no school to keep them here. so that was a pointless endeavour

i've been delving into my music lately and really want to learn an instrument because to be honest, i cant sing, but i still love music, its been there for me so many times when noone else was, so gotta try an find a way to make that happen

peace bitches

hey there

this is how it goes, to all ma peeps an all ma foes

thats a joke, i dont rap

basically this is an opening post, seeing as i have nothing better to do atm but blog

so please, read on :)

my names kurt

im about 6ft tall

i love all sport, spesh rugby,

its like mt personal stressball, all the pent up emotions that would be too much to show in public come out in my football

but yeah, i like to think of myself as unique, because noone else is quite as retarded as i

im tempted to say the whole "i dont care what other people think about me as long as iv got my friends" thing, but honestly, too many people say that these days, most of which its really not true for, i do care what people think about me, i kinda have to seeing as i have no self esteem whatesoever, any of you who know me however will know my caring about my image doesnt get in the way of me being a complete dumbass and enjoying life like any teen should

another thing you either know about me or will soon learn, is that i believe in radical honesty, saying exactly how i feel, not sugarcoating it to make it socially acceptable, if im talking to you, you probably asked for an opinion on something so you can listen to the truth, not just what you want to hear.

i was born in winter some 15 years back, but dont judge me for my age, most people my age irritate me with their immaturity and close to all of my best friends are older than me

so yeah, until next time im bored enough to blog,

farewell

:D